That kick in the guts feeling you got in 1995 in your mid 20s while sitting thru the watchtower study when they changed the generation teaching, yeah that one, you should have listened to that feeling real close and got off your arse and done proper research like you intended to do,not that superficial effort you made and then quickly decided it was too much effort and sucked up your doubts again.
Oh and dont get baptised age 16 thinking you know it's the "truth" when you haven't made any real effort outside of the cult propaganda to make that decision with all of its heavy ongoing consequences.